i wish i was younger and dealing with everything..

it would give me a reason to lash out, 

a reason to be so childishly angry.

but since it's now..

and since it's unacceptable to be that way now..

i have to be able to suck it all in and act reasonably.

but i can't and i don't know how to.

나보고현명하게 대해줬으면좋겠데..
지금.. 이상화에서도 그냥 현명하길바라고있다..

근데 내인생이이렇게뒤집혀지는데..

어떡해 그냥다 삼켜지는데..

넌돼?.. 난안돼.. 그걸좀알아달라고.
왜그렇게자기속만보는데..

눈좀떠달라고. 

 

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